生命是可贵的~

生命~ 对一些人来说是很可贵的；可对另外一些人来说可能是痛苦的~
可是，结束自己的生命就不是明智的选择。

直到现在，我的脑海里一直浮现出那个男孩的样子，挥之不去。原因是他为情自杀身亡了~

今天一早，当我打开facebook时，看到了一个他写的note。我打开来看看，结果发现那是他的遗书。他竟然跳楼自杀了！我当时好惊讶，有吓到~他竟然去跳楼~~~ 可早上他还在急救。我在上着班的时候一直想到他，不知道他是否被抢救成功。一直到放工了，回到家，打开facebook一看，全部人都在写RIP，就知道没有了~他走了~就这样走了~毫不留情的走了~
虽然我不认识他，但他在我的 facebook friend list 里面，还蛮长update status 的，我也常看他的blog，觉得他英文超好的，华文语法也超好~ 没想到他就这样走了~

我想他在结束他生命之前，一定很痛苦，痛苦到他觉得活下去也没意义了吧~我还真想象不到那种会让他有结束生命这个念头的痛苦会有多痛~ 应该真的很痛很痛吧~~~ >..< 他有勇气去自杀，还真的让我很佩服。从他的遗书看来，他在往生前把“走”看得很开~我想他是真的很绝望了吧~

基本上他是为情自杀的，我很好奇他刚分手的女朋友现在怎样了？应该非常难过且接收不到吧~太突然了~ 才分开几个小时，接到的消息竟然是他走了，为了“她”，走了~ 如果我是那女的，我觉得我应该会变自闭吧~ 说真的，我还真不敢想像那女的现在会怎样，应该有一阵都不会好过吧~

朋友们~ 不管你们遇到什么瓶颈都好，都要好好活下去啊~ 因为只有活下去，你才可以改变现实或者争取机会或者挽回一切~  死，不是解决方法，而是一种逃避的行为，它是解决不了问题的~ 切记啊~ 珍惜生命，爱惜自己啊~~ 拜托~~~~ >..<

”投资“

哇哎~ 好久没更新了~ 呵呵~~~ paiseh la~~ XP

其实最近都发生了满多事的。。。有好也有坏~好的也没什么特别，但坏的就很坏了~ T^T

可是都没post出来。。。不懂做么，就没那个心情写~ =。。=

最近我又打算”投资“了~ XP

可是。。。又怕失败！=。。= 

因为过去太多失败的经验了。

不~ 因该说，没成功过~ =。。=

做么会酱啊？？

害我都没信心了，勇气还有一点点的。。。

嗨~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

但愿幸运之神会眷顾我吧这次~ >..<

拜托您了~ 

我是真的很想成功的这次~！！！！

那么好的”股票“我不想失去~ 我想拥有~！！！！>..<

I'm an Advanced Diploma Holder~ ^..~

Today, when I was viewing my facebook, I saw 1 of my coursemate posted that he had pass his paper and going to UK soon~ Then I was wondering: Huh?? The result out dy meh? Not tomorrow, 20th meh?? So, I leave a comment in his post asking him bout the releasing of result. Then he replied: Yea.. the result has been released this morning~ I was like Oh My God!!!!!! I thought tomorrow, Im not prepared at all today~!!! I was so nervous and scared~ 

Then I went in the college website to check for my result. The web was jam and I'm not able to go in at all... "Service Unavailable" somemore~ =..= People so gan jiong liao still don let me check~ >..< After awhile, my house's no internet connection at all somemore~ =..= =.. = =..=  What la.... Need like that meh?? Ish~!!! No choice lo... I called and asked my friend to check for me... She told me I got a C... Erm..... got an C... Happy yet disappointed also. Happy because I passed. Disappointed is because I thought I can get at least a B-. >..< Hai~~~ Passed dy, should be happy la... At least no need to sit for the exam again~ ^^ And I'm still able to graduate with a Merit~ Phew~~

Yeah~!!! AMB friends.... See you all in our convo this Nov ya~ Then we take lotza lotza photo together~ Wuhoo~~!!!! ^^

Autograph~

Today, my class will only starts at 8:20am... I reached school at 6.40am... Because I'm just a part time teacher, so I got nothing much to do if compare with those full time teacher. I sat there and feel so sleepy... Then after awhile, I started FISHING~ Wohoa~ It had been awhile that I didn't FISH liao~ After my college life, I got no chance to FISH liao~ >..< But FISHING is really suffering la. Want to sleep, but scare later people found out pulak.. =P 

Something very funny happened today. ^^ When i was teaching in 4B, I of my student asked for my autograph (although I really donno what she want it for). When i heard her, i was a bit shocked. haha... Want my autograph pulak... Then the whole class approached me and asked me to sign for them~ Walao~ The situation is uncontrollable i tell u~ Really like which artist went into the class and all the fans are crazy for her autograph~ hahahahhahahahha Because is just a minor requirement, so I signed for all of them. Some of them even took more than 1 of my autograph. Then i asked them: "Kenapa nak banyak ni? nak ambil pergi jual ke?? Boleh untung banyak tu~" hahaaha... =P

Then they even asked for my cellphone number and also address... Walao~ hahahha... I wonder why they want it? And what for? At 1st, I didn't plan to give, but they keep "ngai" and "ngai" and "ngai" until the situation cannot be controlled. I cant even continue my lesson. They don't want to cooperate until i gave them what they want.... That time i feel so...so... i also donno how to say... That time very hot somemore, so i was sweating and feel so tired rejecting, but they still don't give up~ =..= In the end, i got no choice but to give them what they want. Then only they feel puas hati and stop making so much noise. 

Hai~~ So tired today..... =..=

Oh ya, yesterday i received a handmade card from 1 of my students. Although it is just a simple card, but I really feel so happy lo~ T^T 1st time received card from student~ Gam dong ah~~~ T^T

Tomorrow will be my last day. Feel so 舍不得 la.... Later my students cry, apa macam? >..<

Will try to take photo with them if possible. To keep it as a memory ma... ^^ Then I'll upload some of them in Facebook~ hehe,,,, You all wait and see la ya~ ^^

What a day~ ^^

Yes... Today is my 1st day teaching in Guo Ming Primary School~ 
I need to wake up early in the morning, at 5am... It is quite tough for me tu~ hahahaha.... Feel so unwilling to wake up but when i think about my students, i had to force myself to wake up~ Hai~ haha...

When i reached the school~ The students greet me "Good morning teacher"~ Waseh~~ It feels so syok you know~ muahahahhaha.... 


Then i waited for the teacher that i replaced to tell me what I'm suppose to do... However, he just simply mentioned out the things that i need to teach. After he finished, I was so blur that i don really understand what he meant. haha... Then he was rushing to go somewhere and I'm not able to ask him what I don't understand~ =..= No choice, then I have to figure it out by myself~ And luckily I'm able to do so~ ^^

8.20am... This is my 1st class, primary 3A. There are only 20+ student in the class... Honestly, they are so noisy and uncontrollable... Hahhaha..But there's something strange going on there. When i got angry, the pupils will keep asked me to rotan them.... They said: "Teacher teacher....Juz rotan them la....Bising ba mereka tu~ Rotan dia...Rotan dia..." Hhahahaha... Some even come to me and said: "Teacher, rotan saya la....."I was like...Huh?? U all like to makan rotan izzit? hahahah... But i didn't rotan them also la.... Cause I'm nice ma.... So, as a conclusion, tak rotan = tak boleh control... =..= I shout, shout and shout~ Almost sore throat dy~ >..<


Then, I teached Primary 6 for english~ 1 of the student asked for my FB account~ Walaoweh~ Primary 6 already play FB ah~~ Geng lo~~ I was shocked when i heard that.... So unbelievable... My friend told me, nowadays, even primary 1 play FB liao~ Wa..... When i was in that age, i play with my fingers only lo.... If more "in" then play Monopoly only lo~~ I even start playing Friendster when I was in Form 4.... >..<

And hor.... I found out that among my students... There 2 boys that are very leng zai geh leh~muahahahhaha.... They look like mix geh.... 1 is primary 3 and another 1 is primary 4 geh~ Walao~~ really leng zai o~~ hahahahha.... Sounds so bin tai o me... Even kids also wanna muk~ =P Before I leave, I'll try to take photos with them and then post it on FB, share with you all ma~ Prove to u all that they are really leng zai~ =P Actually, leng lui also got la.... heheheh,....^^


In a nutshell.... I'm glad that the students seems to like me alot. When they saw me, they will keep greeting me and say me leng lui~~ (paiseh la >..<) hehehe... I feel so warm n happy when i heard that.... Indeed, this will be a unforgettable moments in my life... I don't think I'll got the chance to experience this again in the future. A big thanks to Sharon and her mum (the principal) for giving me the opportunity to experience the life of a teacher~ ^^

Wuhoo~~ Part Time Teacher~ ^^

Just now I had my lunch with my secondary school best friend, Sharon. Hee...^^

Really long long time didn't saw her edy~ Because our semester break are not the same... But finally saw her edy tis afternoon~ Had a great time chit chatting with her during our lunch time and also tea time~ muahahhaha....We ate alot tim~ kekekekkeke... =P

Then she told me her mum's primary school is hiring a part time teacher for 1 week. She asked me am i interested~ I was like....Erm...Im ok with that geh...Since i'm still measuring the road at home... Why don't i just go and experience the life of being a teacher~ Primary school teacher sounds ok wud~ hehe.... Therefore, i had agreed with the offer. 

And now, Im so looking forward for tomorrow's teaching life. I wonder how will it goes like?? Can i handle all the challenges that might appear?? (Walao....say dao macam so serious~~~haha)

Really cant wait to go school and meet my cute little students la~ Hehehehhehe....

But then hor....I was told to teach BM and BI....Er.....er...........I think I can handle gua~ >..< Maths those i got more confidence la~ Ini BM and BI....er.............Don worry la Kaylie....U got A1 for both of that subject in SPM also ma....Shdn't be a problem la.....I THINK~~ >..<

Wuhoo~~~ Tomorrow please come faster la~~ Kekekkekekeke...^..~

I'm Back~ =]

Wow....It has been awhile that i didn't update my blog~ hahahha....Paiseh la....Cause sometimes really don't have the mood to update...=P

Well... Many things happened in my lovely April this year....  

1st of all... I went to JB and also SIngapore to visit my cousins and also my ex-classmates...
Well, I had a wonderful trip indeed. I went to shopping, enjoy nice foods, hanging around with my cousins in JB and also having a memorable moments with my babes Eleen and Esther in Singapore~ Thanks for everything that you all had done for me ya... Really appreciate that...
If got chance, feel free to come to Sabah and I'll definitely welcome you. Cause i got my car dy....Wuhoo~ Can drive you all around dy~ kekekekek.... ^^

p/s: Singapore is really really a great place~!!! If you got chance to go there, please...please don't compare Malaysia with SIngapore... U will be regret for that~ kekekekekek.... =P

Then i need to mentioned about my study week and also my exam... Hai~

The reason I'm going back KL in April is to resit the paper that i failed, which is the Advanced Malaysian Taxation~ Hai~ =..= It's been a long time that i didn't touch it dy. When i need to revise back and recall all back, it's really suffer for me because i had almost forgotten all of them... =P But luckily i got my best friends short notes, it's like a summary of all the chapters and it really helps me in recalling all the things and makes my life easily~ hahahha.... Thanks you very much Florence~ Love ya so much o~ Plus, i also needa give a big thanks to my roommate cause she helped me alot when i'm having problem with the understanding of the theory or the calculation~ Love ya much much oso o my dear Carol~~ Oh ya.... And also a big thanks to Lee Ping for giving me all those tips that she got~ Thanks~ >..<


Now i wanna talk about  my exam paper. Erm.... Actually i thought it will be easy as this is our last chance to pass the paper and graduate. I thought the lecturer will "give water" and try to set the question easier~ But when i look at those questions... I was like... Huh?? That lecturer didn't help us pun~ Ish... The questions for me are not that easy as i expected... But thanks god that i'm still able to answer most of them, and i think i can pass it GUA~~ Please la God and also Mr Chong~ Please pass me la.... I wanna attend the graduation ceremony with all my friends o~~ T^T I wonder when the result will be released~ I really cant wait to see what result can i get~ >..<


Now, I'm back to my hometown, Tawau. Waiting for calls from the banks as I 'd send my resume to them before i went back to KL and it was like 1 month ago~ Until now, i still haven get any call yet...Quite sad to hear that actually... Hai~~ Therefore, for these few days, I only can measure the road and do nothing at home 1st. Then try to apply more jobs. I hope not long from now, i got a job, and i will like it la... Pray hard that it will be soon la~ >..<

Hope~

Hmm... I wonder how things will go on this time?? Will it be different?? Or still the same like what i experienced it before- FAILURE~??? I hope it will be different this time... I hope that there will be some miracle this time~~ Really hope that things will go on smoothly like what I expected~ Really hate the feeling of disappointment and failure~! I had enough of those. I wan excitement and also success this time~! >..<

I'll know that by this weekend~ Hope thing goes well like what I expected~ =]

Exams T^T

Walao~ really so damn tired n stress lo tis few days......

My CA~

Ah~~ There's only 1 word to describe my CA paper...."SUCKS" >..<
I donno la~ I don really think i can pass lo honestly, unless Ms. Chin really mark it leniently~ If not, next sem needa c those notes again~ T^T ( I don wan ah~~~~ Plz pass me la, C enuf lo~ I don expect much~~ >..<) 
Then after my exam, I plan 2 study hard for my CG paper ma, coz CA so sucks dy, sure needa aim for my CG lo~ At 1st, stil okok geh~ but after few hours, totally cant absorb dy, donno y...din memorise oso geh ah....Then i think back of my CA paper, n think ha my CG now....AH~~~ Feel like crying ah~~ N i really cried u know~ >..< Erm....i think for 30 seconds?? hai~~ 1st time study dao so stress, until cry somemore....=..=
Tu la~ din do revision constantly la~ ma suffer lo now.....Dai sei~~!!!

My CG~

I woke up at 3am in da morning again today. Woke up early at 3am for 2 consecutive days juz bcoz 2 paper is juz next to each other. =..= slept 2 hours only lo each day~ 
Ok lo, nvm lo~ ma study lo~ but then, who knows, im not studying all da time lo.....I think i "fishing" more than i study. Read 1 sentence then fishing, read 1 sentence then fishing again. Walao~ wat i read i totally don really rmb lo~~~ Aiks.....How to go for exam o???? But no time dy lo, die die go lo~~


When i read da section A's questions for da 1st time, i feel like crying again. I was thinking tat: " can i pass up a blank paper ah??" T^T Totally donno wat to write leh~~
Donno izzit bcoz da seat (B 34) i sat is surrounded by alot of distinction student, then their power accidentally pass to me leh? Coz when i read da 2nd time, i'm able to come out wif some points o....Altho donno correct onot, but better than submit blank paper ma....^..~ 
Wat i can say here is, Level 5 paper really not play play 1~~~ So many thgs to write until im not able to answer all da questions~ >..< Keep writing writing n writing, n my palm keep sweating sweating n sweating~~~ =..=


Today, im not goin 2 study anymore~ Wanna gif myself a day break. ^^ So, later i wil take a nap, n watch Avatar tru PPS. Nite go pasar malam~~ Wuhoo~~~ ^^

Sad ah~ T^T

Today, 8th of January, is da last day of my college life~

Our class rep, Ms. Florence, manage to organise a gathering for our class @ Happy Season. Honestly, im so looking forward for the gathering since da moment i knew it.^^ Mayb bcoz it is our class laz gathering b4 the exams, so muz appreciate the moments we havin thr.

The environment thr is quite nice, food is quite nice oso( i mean mine la~ =P). But the price thr is not cheap oso(depends on wat u order la). However, because of the table arrangement, we din manage to talk much wif each others. Our gathering actually had became juz an ordinary lunch wif our own gang, in a big room.

However, we stil manage to take some group photos thr la, altho not full attendance, but still consider the majority is thr. ^^ I hope that, after the exams, we still able to gather again in order to leave some precious memories in our college life. OK?? ^^

 

I cant believe that time passes so fast that i had actually studied in KL for 4 years dy!

Im actually goin to graduate soon (if i really work very hard, and pass all my exams....=P), it is quite hard to believe that I've finally  finished my studies and gonna prepare for my working life soon. 

I think Im prepared for the working life but not for my comin exams~ How come ah? haha... =P

My future~ 

I have to rethink about my future again~ Aiks...

Actually i had decided wat to do after i graduated geh lo~

I plan to go Singapore work for few years, then go back my hometown, Tawau geh.

But after listening to wat Ms. Chin said, I doubt about my plan dy. =..=

Shd i juz go spore work as any position that i think i can fit in well? 

Or

Shd i work in KL, n work as a Company Secretary for 2 years in order to get my qualification as a Charted Secretary? (since i've been studying for it for 2 years)

Or

Shd i go work in Spore as a company secretary? But work as a company secretary thr need to study for the Law n Tax of Spore in order to get the certificate thr to act as a company secretary. I hate study~! But if i think deeper, by getting an additional cert can actually help me to add value to myself for applying job in the future.

Ah~~~ I donno ah~~~ Wait i finish my comin exams only i think bout tat la~ For now, i shd be focusing on my comin exams and try to score well. Because my average coursework marks are quite low, so, I needa work very hard in the final in order to get a "B" for all the subjects. If not, my CGPA sure drop gao gao 1~ N i don wish that to happen.....>..<

KAYLIE~ Concentrate on your revision ah~~~ Not much time left dy ah~~~ Got alot to study n memorise tim ah~~~~ Ga yao ah~!!! ^^

 

Stil da same~ =..=

Today, din touch my book oso....=..= If based on my own revision timetable, i shd touch CG today geh, n oso yesterday n da day b4 yesterday~ Now, 3 days din touch dy.........HOW?? Jialak lo~ I donno la~ Im worried la~ KAYLIE~~~ I donno u la~ U zap sang la~~ >..<

Then juz now, i went to do a facial treatment. Walao~ da result leh~ quite shocking! coz my whole face so bengkak after da treatment......when i look at da mirror, i was so shocked! haha...altho i experience tis b4 la~ But tmr i needa go play badminton wif lotza frens ma....boh sui dy lo~~ >..< Hai~ Now i only can pray that it wil recovered by tmr la~! Please la~~~ Muz recover ah~~!!! >..<

Kaylie ah Kaylie~

Ah~ another 16 days more then my exams wil start geh la~
Got da mood la~ but don haf da motivation to start my revision leh~
If keep on like tat, die geh ma~ Coursework din do well, exams sure suffer dy lo~ Aim to get 3.0 for my CGPA tim geh ah~~~ Now, cook soup dy lo~~ T^T

Actually I oledi come out wif a timetable on wat to study for da rest of the days until exam ends geh lo~~ Muz follow lo, if not, really not enuf time to study geh lo....Si beh alot to study lo tis sem, altho juz 3 subject la......>..<
Don worry la...I wil try my best geh la~ At least muz get all pass, if possible, range B better la...(macam a bit greedy hor~ but muz aim higher geh ma....XP)

My dear Chia Huey...

Thank you very much for helping me to modify my blog ya~ Really appreciate ur help leh~~~~ Love u so much~~~~ Muakssss....^^

I'm here to update my blog la~~ ^^

Paiseh la....let u all wait so long~ =P I donno so many ppl like my blog geh wor...kekeke...*shy*
It's has been awhile that i din update my blog dy....Donno y tat time i so got mood 2 create my blog, but now, no mood to maintain it pulak~ (paiseh la....>..<)

Actually quite lotza thg happened recently~ I oso donno whether wanna write all onot~ Coz really damn alot~~ >..< I think 1 whole day oso not enuf 4 me to write all....(uiseh...got so kua jiong onot o? hahaha...no la~ blow cow only...=P) Ok la, i try my best to recall n share them out la...^^

Let's start wif my X'mas...^^

Erm...tat day after class, me n my roommate n another fren, Patrick, went to Pavilion to celebrate our Xmas. Coz i heard tat Pavilion really got da Xmas feel wor~ Got snow someore, then ma go c c lo~ ^^
When i reached thr, walao~ da decoration thr really so nice lo~~ especially nite time...>..< We all r busy taking photos coz wanna make it a memorable moment ma...XP

At 8pm sharp, we all went to da main gate thr to c da snow.... Once we  reached thr....waseh~ really snowing leh......sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo nice lo~~~~ Really looks like snowing~ I grow so  big dy, 1st time c snow leh...(altho is fake 1 la...>..<) I keep taking photos OF the snow, BUT 4got to take photo WITH the snow....Ah~~~~~ So stupid...>..<

Show u all da snowing pic that i took...^^ (altho don haf me inside...aiks...>..<)

 

If u wan c got me inside da photo one, go my FB c ya...hahaha..=P
Then we wait outside Pavilion to wait for the countdown...I tot got something special bout the countdown for Xmas 1, mana tau my fren told me nothing special for Xmas countdown 1...=..= At 12am sharp, really nothing special wor...Juz got lotza screaming sound and da car's hon sound....=..= but then...got the feel oso la....hahahaha....

At least tis year Im not staying at home n doin nothing ma....I used to stay at home during Xmas 1....coz no1 ajak n no activities oso...T^T Tis year can go enjoy da Xmas feel n countdown consider very special for me dy...Hee....^^

Now, talk bout my BBQ~ ^^

Yea~ At laz, my BBQ is on~ Hee....so happy.....waited for so long, n im so glad tat is ON~!!! Thanks for those who came....Ai? Shd say full attendance for our class wor...^^ I was so busy preparing da food after class. Luckily i got banyak helpers thr to backup me....Thanks to Florence, Huey, Angel, Cindy, Yin Yin, Lei Ling & Kim Kim ya.....^^ Appreciate ur help o~

U know wat? My frens praised my mihun n salad nice leh~ Da mihun tak cukup makan lagi leh~ Wuhoo~~ So happy~~ >..< If got chance, cook for u all again ah~~ hehe.....^^ After i get da pics wif my fren then only i show u all da food i prepared ya. ^^
We all haf a great time tat nite.....we r enjoy as well....really glad tat our class BBQ is ON~! ^^

Countdown for 2010 @ Sg wang ^^

Wuhoo~ go countdown at Sg wang again~ ^^ Altho very crowded thr la...but da fireworks thr is da best la~! ^^ Got celebrities to c somemore....altho not those i like alot la...but at least got ma..hahha...
My roommate Ah Ping ping offer me a VIp ticket to STAND at a nearer distance to the stage. So both of us STAND inside da VIP area lo~ At 1st leh, we cant c anything from da place we STAND. hahahah....But then, after adjust adjust ha, can c a lil bit la....XP

N tel u hor~ tat organiser so STUPID 1 lo~~ =..= They put a big monitor above da stage ma...I tot da function of da monitor is to show da ppl behind wat's goin on on the stage ma. Then i think nvm la, cant c da real person, c da screen oso can la. Ok lo. At 1st, when tat donno WHO is givin speech b4 the concert begin, da monitor got show da head of the WHO geh... But mana tau when da concert actually had began....da STUPID screen din show wat's goin on stage but show da equalizer da whole nite pulak~~ I za dao gao gao lo~~ =..= STUPID ORGANIZER!!!!!!

Hmm....I think tat's all for da main things happened recently~ Others r juz some minor thinggy n im lazy to type....=P Please 4gif me for tat ya...^^